A few nights ago, I was able to talk to a good friend about our personal lives. I never got to talk to him like that since we met so I was like feeling lucky that night he is letting me into his private life.We came to a point that we discussed about his health. It wasn't a secret that I too got some body defects so I started sharing mine first before he revealed that he too got the same disease as mine. The whole world knows about this life threatening defect, the Congenital Heart Disease.
Since I was a kid, I was diagnosed that I have it. But because the doctors said I have to be in a proper age and have the proper body to undergo the operation, my parents waited until I am OK to take it. Fortunately enough, all those time I was diagnosed with it, I never felt anything weird with my heart, except that I sometime feel like I am out of air. So therefore, the whole family just decided not to put me in the operation. Besides, we know some who underwent it and just got the disease worse.
I'm almost 23 and up to now, I'm still not feeling anything weird about my heart, exactly the same as my friend. We both have it, but in reality, it's just like a word that we have it, but we were never bothered by it.
However, one of my friends said that this kind of disease is really most of the time symptom-less, especially at the young age. It is commonly felt during the age of 30 and above. Hearing him speak, I felt scared. Most specially when he told me there are some who died before they reached the age of 40.
I have all the means to know about the disease, but I personally chose not to know anything about it. Maybe it's because I'm scared to know more about it, or perhaps I just don't want to accept the fact that I won't be able to live that long. Yes, I'm such a coward to face my condition.
